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topthemonkey) wrote2008-08-15 03:19 pm
topthemonkey) wrote2008-08-15 03:19 pm
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OH WAIT I HAVE A VAGINA
I think I'm ovulating. The clues are increased irrational irritability, nearly always aroused, and a change in taste and smell of my vaginal discharge.
I really don't like this time of the month.
Any issues I have with my gender identity are just amplified when it comes to menstruation.
The other day, I was feeling particularly male. The Top and I were in bed and he was making advances. I was not really responding. He started to go down on me and it felt awkward but I relaxed, got into it, and came. Then he tried to kiss me.
And I just felt so utterly disgusted. I tried to push him away, and he seemed angry and confused.*
Normally, I like the taste and smell of pussy, including my own. But when I'm feeling more male, I'm more attracted to males.
That's Issue #1.
Issue #2 is (and maybe you've guessed this already) I was feeling disconnected from my genitalia, managed to ignore these feelings and then there's this big sticky reminder, OH WAIT I HAVE A VAGINA.
It's not like I want SRS, because I don't. I just . . . I hate this feeling.
*I only managed to explain to him what was wrong the next day.
I really don't like this time of the month.
Any issues I have with my gender identity are just amplified when it comes to menstruation.
The other day, I was feeling particularly male. The Top and I were in bed and he was making advances. I was not really responding. He started to go down on me and it felt awkward but I relaxed, got into it, and came. Then he tried to kiss me.
And I just felt so utterly disgusted. I tried to push him away, and he seemed angry and confused.*
Normally, I like the taste and smell of pussy, including my own. But when I'm feeling more male, I'm more attracted to males.
That's Issue #1.
Issue #2 is (and maybe you've guessed this already) I was feeling disconnected from my genitalia, managed to ignore these feelings and then there's this big sticky reminder, OH WAIT I HAVE A VAGINA.
It's not like I want SRS, because I don't. I just . . . I hate this feeling.
*I only managed to explain to him what was wrong the next day.