why we (or at least I) haven't posted in a month

It all feels so repetitive.

School is over. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I feel unfulfilled and bored. The Top is always at work. I haven't seen any of the few friends I have scattered around the state either because they're too far away or the Top doesn't want me to see them. We don't play as much as I'd like.
Blah, blah, blah.

I made a nice display of our dildos and butt plugs on the headboard of the bed. Excluding the Njoy wand and the inflatable butt plug. That's not where I bought the inflatable butt plug, I wasn't sure of the site as I bought it at a fair. I do remember that the vendor flirted with me quite a lot.
In related news: we need more dildos and butt plugs. The Top gave me a new dildo for my birthday. It's a little (ok, not so little) wooden man.

I can't seem to finish any crafting projects I start.

I have names of gynecologists, dentists, general practitioners, plastic surgeons (been contemplating breast reduction surgery since I was 13, want at least a consultation) . . . but I haven't made a single appointment. Well, that's not true. I made a gyno appointment that I forgot about and thus missed, while I was too scared to call them back and explain.

I still don't have my driver's permit in this state or a local library card.

Blah, blah, blah.