school malaise
Mar. 12th, 2009 09:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
topthemonkeySometimes I get depressed (ha, understatement), my performance in school drops, and I think, why even bother? What does it matter?
I'm a slave. None of this shit is useful. I cook, I clean, I fuck. The Top isn't even interested in any of the things I'm studying, so it's not like I can contribute to conversation.
He's said he sees my studies as pretty useless, unless I apply them to library and information science. But then he says they contribute to my career path (whatever that is). The Top says he wants me to have a career, but I think that's limited to a theoretical one. He's too fond of having me at his disposal for me to maintain a full-time work schedule.
It just all feels so . . . useless. What future do I have, outside of slavehood? Is this supposed to be enough for me, my entire life?
I'm a slave. None of this shit is useful. I cook, I clean, I fuck. The Top isn't even interested in any of the things I'm studying, so it's not like I can contribute to conversation.
He's said he sees my studies as pretty useless, unless I apply them to library and information science. But then he says they contribute to my career path (whatever that is). The Top says he wants me to have a career, but I think that's limited to a theoretical one. He's too fond of having me at his disposal for me to maintain a full-time work schedule.
It just all feels so . . . useless. What future do I have, outside of slavehood? Is this supposed to be enough for me, my entire life?
