coming out of the age play closet

This post is going to be about age play. My understanding of it, as well as what aspects of it appeal to myself and the Top.

( What is age play? )

( What is age play not? )

The Top and I have differing interests in age play but enough overlap for it to work. His interest is primarily in the caregiver role; age play allows him to be a caregiver on a different, in many ways deeper, level than usual. My interest is more varied.

I like feeling helpless.
Though when we play I am not always pre-verbal, I also like having my speech taken away or restricted.

I like feeling taken care of. Like the Top's fondness for the caregiver role, age play allows for this on a deeper level.

An aspect that many people tend to overlook regarding age play is that it gives a transgender person the opportunity to go back and be a different gender than the one they were raised, to receive validation as a child as the gender they are now (or were then but didn't receive validation as).

Another interest is going back and getting needs met now, as a child, that I didn't get then. I'm going to address this in another entry as it touches on the "d" word.

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The Top worked maybe 90 hours last week. Needless to say, I haven't seen him much. We miss each other.

But I was reading other journals of people in the lifestyle and I realized that I am so incredibly lucky that I am able to live with the Top, to spend my time worrying only about following his orders. Not having a job makes me anxious but as the Top points out, being his slave *is* my job. I feel lucky that it's the only job I have to have, that I don't have Harsh Reality slapping me in the face every work day, distracting me from my submission. Well, during the school year I'm a full-time student, but that's a bit different.

So, yeah. I'm very grateful.