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topthemonkeyI thought I'd feel better once I got some beating and bondage but now I just want mooooooore.
The Top was in bed resting, since he's super sick, and I crawled in (after asking permission, natch). I had been looking at/reading porn and started to try to rub my against his leg and snaked my hand under the blankets to rub his general pelvic region. I asked permission to masturbate, he said yes, ended up getting involved, etc. etc.
And then like two hours later he tells me that he wasn't happy that his rest was interrupted. Apparently he was thinking "oh god, I was ASLEEP*, why is boy touching my penis??"
This made me cry. I didn't expect such a strong response but . . . I know he's reading these posts. I know he knows I don't want him to push himself to do something for my sake though I guess it's his prerogative to do what he wants so do I really have a right to complain if him doing what he wants is bending to meet my desires even though it makes me feel guilty.
*He's had a lot of trouble staying asleep for more than an hour at a time, if at all.
The Top was in bed resting, since he's super sick, and I crawled in (after asking permission, natch). I had been looking at/reading porn and started to try to rub my against his leg and snaked my hand under the blankets to rub his general pelvic region. I asked permission to masturbate, he said yes, ended up getting involved, etc. etc.
And then like two hours later he tells me that he wasn't happy that his rest was interrupted. Apparently he was thinking "oh god, I was ASLEEP*, why is boy touching my penis??"
This made me cry. I didn't expect such a strong response but . . . I know he's reading these posts. I know he knows I don't want him to push himself to do something for my sake though I guess it's his prerogative to do what he wants so do I really have a right to complain if him doing what he wants is bending to meet my desires even though it makes me feel guilty.
*He's had a lot of trouble staying asleep for more than an hour at a time, if at all.
