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Feb. 5th, 2008 03:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
topthemonkeyThe Top moved this past weekend. He's staying with a friend who is also a Dom and lives with his slave. They're more Old Guard than we are, but I don't see that being an issue. I went down with the Top. He's not sure how long he'll be living here, but it's really nice. The Top's last residence was less than kink friendly and now we're in a lifestyle household. The difference is, ah, drastic.
The Top and I have discussed my need for a more consistent, heavy dynamic between us several times. Keeping it 24/7 and not letting it slip when problems (especially concerning my mental health) arise because that's when we (or maybe mostly I) need that dynamic reinforced the most. Every time we have had this discussion and I've been really upset about the state of our relationship, things have changed, for a few hours to a few days. The Top has said, it's going to be different. And every time I believed him less and less.
Last night we were discussing rules about my consumption of ice cream. I've gained maybe 20 lbs since I got into this relationship, due in no small part to the Top's indulgent nature. He wants to see me happy, ice cream makes me happy. Despite being lactoseintolerant sensitive, I can eat a lot of ice cream. And the Top bought me a lot of ice cream.
So in establishing these new rules concerning ice cream, I made some snarky remark about how, oh, this was suddenly going to be different than the last 7 months. He slapped me and said it was. He didn't slap me as hard as he has in the past, but it was in front of two other people, one the Dom he's staying with and one a vanilla friend. They weren't phased by it at all. This was new. He said later that it felt right, comfortable, and I agree.
When we were in bed for the night, talking, the Top said that this time is different than the others. Things are not going to be different, it's different now.
The Top and I have discussed my need for a more consistent, heavy dynamic between us several times. Keeping it 24/7 and not letting it slip when problems (especially concerning my mental health) arise because that's when we (or maybe mostly I) need that dynamic reinforced the most. Every time we have had this discussion and I've been really upset about the state of our relationship, things have changed, for a few hours to a few days. The Top has said, it's going to be different. And every time I believed him less and less.
Last night we were discussing rules about my consumption of ice cream. I've gained maybe 20 lbs since I got into this relationship, due in no small part to the Top's indulgent nature. He wants to see me happy, ice cream makes me happy. Despite being lactose
So in establishing these new rules concerning ice cream, I made some snarky remark about how, oh, this was suddenly going to be different than the last 7 months. He slapped me and said it was. He didn't slap me as hard as he has in the past, but it was in front of two other people, one the Dom he's staying with and one a vanilla friend. They weren't phased by it at all. This was new. He said later that it felt right, comfortable, and I agree.
When we were in bed for the night, talking, the Top said that this time is different than the others. Things are not going to be different, it's different now.
